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CollapseFriday, April 1, 2011
Hosea 14:2-4
Say to the Lord, "Assyria will not save us, nor shall we have horses to mount; we shall say no more 'Our God' to the work of our hands."
Spurgeon spent his life (1834-1892) preaching (38 years, 10,000,000 listeners, up to 10 times a week all over England). But he suffered his whole life from depression and anxiety. And his wife was often too ill to hear him preach. Spurgeon was a compelling speaker at age 22. His congregation grew so large they had to rent the music hall in Surrey Gardens. While he was preaching, someone yelled "Fire!" The panicked crowd trampled seven to death. Spurgeon collapsed. Inconsolable. How could he ever forget? Like many before and after him, Spurgeon strove to let God transform him through his depression. His success was uneven, at best. Anti-depressant meds would have made his life much richer. On the other hand, his personal "collapse" did allow him to drop on his face before God. He could not idolize the work of his hands. Not when people were trampled, not while he was dying by depression and his wife just would not get healed. What his hands touched too often seemed to turn to dust. An older Spurgeon talked about this part of his life, putting on it the best construction: Depression has now become to me as a prophet in rough clothing, a John the Baptist heralding the nearer coming of my Lord's richer benison. So have far better men found it. The scouring of the vessel has fitted it for the Master's use. Lord, you will turn even my agonies into joy, if I let you, if I retouch my definition of joy and let you show me your ways. Not mine. Yours. Not my path. Yours. Not even my thoughts. Especially not my thoughts. Yours. * http://www.thesermonscribe.com/2010/the-joyous-return-hosea-141-3/ |